Monday, August 2, 2010

High Anxiety.....



Do any of you suffer from Sunday night anxiety???? I do, I don't sleep well on Sunday night, actually come to think of it I don't sleep well at all :/ BUT SUNDAY NIGHTS REALLY STINK! I get anxious about falling asleep, work myself up into a frenzy & then can't sleep! Makes for a very long Monday!!!

I have such anxiety about so many things, my family is changing and I feel like we are all growing apart from each other. I've tried and tried but I am just too tired now, I never seem to say the right thing. I find I always offend somebody. I find myself clamming up so that I don't say the wrong thing & I find that I keep how I am feeling inside and bottled up all of the time!

I just feel lost and alone today, kind of like if I were to just dispear would anybody notice that I was gone...yeah, I guess when the laundry wasn't done, the tummies got hungry, birthdays went by without a gift, Thanksgiving didn't have a Turkey, Christmas was treeless....maybe then & then would it only be for that moment? I think so!

Sorry to be such a downer today, no sleep tends to make me touchy. Maybe tomorrow I'll just crawl under the bed and hide there!

Until tomorrow, Be Safe & God Bless.....

5 comments:

  1. OK dear Lynda, here comes a big hug! When I worked... Sunday nights were awful. I started dreading Monday about midday Sunday, knowing I wouldn't be able to sleep. I couldn't sleep for trying so hard to sleep and never wanted to get up on Monday morning. So, YES, I know exactly how you feel! And it does make you feel weird after the lack of sleep.

    Now, I am sorry you are feeling low tonight! It sounds like a chat with some folks might help a bit. Perhaps let them know how you are feeling and it might clear the air? Try to sleep tonight and have a clearer view of things tomorrow. If you need me, just yell!

    Love you bunches! Ganky

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  2. I get anxious at bedtime every night. I used to say my prayers before I went to sleep, but then I'd nearly break out in a sweat feeling anxious about the things I was praying about. Having said that, I'm gonna say a prayer for you right now instead of when I'm going to sleep. I hope you feel better tomorrow. Things always look a little brighter in the morning.

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  3. My dear Lynda...I sure know how you feel!! I have to take something a lot of times to help me sleep and not feel so anxious!! I lay down and think about things that I really shouldn't even be thinking/worrying about!! But that is just me! I will keep you in my prayers and just know I am always her if you need to chat!! Love you bunches!!

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  4. awwwww... well, by the time you read these comments, you will probably be into Tuesday...and hopefully feeling better. sounds like there will be little prayers going up for you tonight, so I hope you will notice the difference!! I'll be one of those prayin'

    You need a dawg next to your bed to just stroke and stroke til you start to calm down.

    And you know that I know that I'm just preachin' to the choir telling you being anxious never changes anything but YOU!!!!! Makes you feel like a mid-life woman going through the worst part of a cyclone on the worst day of her menopausal crazed self!!!
    I'll tell you what - Forties can be wonderful, but they can also be crazy... I'll never forget my female ob-gyn telling me "HONEY, welcome to the turbulent forties. Hunker down and Hang on, and when it's all over you'll say WHAT a RIDE!! but boy will it only get better after that... okaaaaaaaaayyyyy, I'm ready for the better part! LOL...Turning 50 in a month and well, I'll say it IS getting better. I don't have as many troubles getting to sleep, and starting to settle down a bit...
    Hugs to you, and don't worry, we girls all feel that way more than a few times...like we might as well just crawl in a hole, cause nobody would care,,,but WE know better ! Our Dogs would miss us like crazy within 24 hours. :-) :-) :-) That's why I love 'em.
    HUGS to you from all these girls out here who identify and CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE SURE WOULD MISS YOU!

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  5. When you said you always feel like you are saying the wrong thing and how you feel like you are offending people etc. That is exactly how I feel. Usually my anti-depressant helps... I used to be alot worse!!! I am just a bundle of insecurities, worries and anxieties. Thank God for Him and drugs! lol! Love you and praying for you!

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