First the Literal…I went back to my rheumatologist today to get the once over and to have some lab work done before starting back up on Remicade.
Dr. A “you’re looking good but your hands are freezing and quite blue”
Me “well, they have been bothering me since early November & my left arm sometimes just hangs limply & hurts to move. I can’t lift my vacuum cleaner & you know I just love to vacuum!!”
After several attempts to twist, turn, tug & pull at them he had me get up on the table…
Dr. A “how’s that hip? Oh, sorry, very tender? Can you move it that way?”
Me “No!” with tears streaming down my cheeks.
Dr. A “Let’s head over to the ultrasound room.”
35 minutes later, the tear in my hip is a little bigger and the cartilage is completely shot on the right side, right arm tendonitis & bursitis with a lot of wear and tear on the socket…left arm, tendinosis, bursitis, and a tear on my rotator cuff ~ FUN!!
Leg ~ a shot into the hip joint and into my groin OUCH!!!
R Arm ~ shot in the shoulder
L Arm ~ 2 shots in the left shoulder and a shot of “painkiller” into my ELBOW!!! I really thought I would faint, seriously…I have never felt anything like that but you can also hear it going through the tendons ~ EEEEKKKK!!!
SIX SHOTS SIXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX!!!!!
I am wiped out!
Hopefully I can start back on Remicade in February; we had a colonoscopy scare right before Nikky’s wedding. Not sure if you remember or not but I had a colonoscopy in September the week before Nikky’s wedding, my colonoscopy was positive ~ 6 polyps, 2 of the ones that are “o.k.” and 4 that weren’t so “o.k.” one of the four was large and the pathologist was very worried about it. I was a bundle of nerves & didn’t tell a soul, (only my wing-man Mr. P) until I had it repeated on December 17th and was told that he got all of the “big one” this time ~ Thank you, Lord. That was why I had to stop the infusions, now if my liver enzymes are o.k. it’s a go & I hate to have to go for it but I really cannot wait to start back again. I feel like a wet dishrag & do not like it one bit!!!
Now for the Figurative… (I’m almost done; I know I have blabbed a lot tonight) I do not like it when my children travel or my husband for that matter or my mother!!! Crazy I know but I get so anxious! When we were all driving to North Carolina Nikky checked-in at every state with a text picture or a quick call. I spoke to my mom several times during the first leg of the journey and then “MADE” her call me when they got back on the road at 5:00am the next morning, I calle dher a few more times after that!!! Billy called us while he drove down from CLJ. I passed out cold once I got to see Nikky & Mike and I knew that they were o.k. I tried to be awake to meet my mom & Tommy but I just couldn’t do it, I made Mr. P promise to stay awake until he heard from them. They called he woke me up & then went to their room to help them unload and have a “cold one”! The next night the anxiety level was up again as Billy made his way to the wedding venue...
When Billy traveled to Parris Island, I dreaded it, didn’t want to get that call but was so relieved to hear that scripted message…my nerves were shot when he went to Japan & well all of you know what a nut case I was when he was making his way home!!!! WHAT A LONGGGGGGGGGGG WEEKEND!!!
Well, he heads out to Mojave Viper this weekend & my nerves are raw. I cannot stop the tears no matter how hard I try. I know what will be coming down the pike and I really don’t think I am strong enough. My heart is broken & I am so scared…He’s my baby boy and yes I feel foolish but I can’t help it.
Well Hello, my name is Lynda and I’m 43 years old…I’ve been happily married 2x to the same man for let’s see all together 17 years. Yes that’s what I said 2x, I took a 2.5 year hiatus ~ we were young and silly. My hubby’s name is Billy; yes I have two of them. Big & Lil', we also have a daughter her name is Nikky, oh and can't forget Max & Bailey our four legged kids!
Our daughter Nikky is busy, busy, busy planning her wedding :) !!!!!
Our son is a Corporal in the United States Marine Corps ~ PDS Okinawa Japan.